Deep Thoughts for a Sunday

I've probably spent the better part of an hour trying to write this post. I'm not sure what it should be about, because there's a ton thoughts brewing that need to be let out. So, I think I'll pick one and stick with it.

Why are we fake with people? Believe me, I am fake often. I want to impress people, I guess. People's opinions have a hold on us, and they shouldn't. I guess I've noticed this a lot lately through a certain situation. Erica and I are on a "break". It's been weird and awkward, so I've probably been weird and awkward to be around. You see, I haven't told many people this, because I'm scared of what they'll think. I've been fake, dishonest even. But, I'm tired of it.

Have you ever been asked a question in a group, and you have an opinion, but you don't say it until you know someone else agrees with you? I have such confidence in other people's opinions, but I have none in my own. Shouldn't I have the most faith in mine?

And that, is why we are fake with people. We want to "fit in", but we lose our own ideas and thoughts by doing so. It reminds me of Donald Miller's Lifeboat theory - how we're all striving to get others to like us, so we're not thrown overboard.

I love this quote, and I think it has the answer:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." ~Marianne Williamson

We should be ourselves, and not worry if our creativity, ideas or achievements threaten other people.